Hey There and welcome to my Healing Journey. I speak about what I went through and how I've healed. It's been a process. I know I’m not alone and neither are you! So here's me sharing…
This week I speak about how my name went from Carol to Carrie, to Kari and then back to Carol. That may be interesting to follow - but you'll hear and hopefully you'll get it.
When my mom was pregnant with me, my dad had said he wanted to call me Carol Ann. His brother and him had a pact that who ever had the first girl, her name would be Carol Ann (which still makes me ponder when he told me he originally never wanted to have kids… hmmm). My mom said something about wanting to name me something like Christine or Christina I think, something like that.
When I was born, my mom was awake and then soon fell asleep, just long enough for my Dad to put Carol Ann on my birth certificate. (At least that's what I'm assuming? I never asked, but how else would that have happened?)
I guess she was upset about it, because as soon as they got divorces, BAM, my nickname became Carrie. No one but my Aunt Nancy (her sister, may she rest in peace) called me Carol Ann- my Christian name. And even then that didn't last. My mom made sure No One called me Carol. They even called me Carrie in school, not Carol.
Flash forward when I was about 14 or so, my cousin and I were playing around with the spelling of our names. I was going through some trauma, a lot of trauma. I chose the spelling Kari. My cousin kept her spelling. I chose Kari because it's not my real name and I could change it how I wanted it.
I don't EVER remember being called Carol in my life by family members- if they did, they were corrected.
However, my trauma started at age 4, that's also when my mom called me Carrie. So the name Carol was never really loved. I started that transition about a month, maybe two months ago. Kari endured the trauma, Carol is now getting that nurturing and is loving on Kari.
I even had a little ceremony/ritual for the name transformation. I now wholeheartedly accept and go by Carol. Carol Ann is a beautiful name. Then I had to go through all my accounts, bills, email stuff, family and friends and transition all that to Carol. Yes- a lifetime of Kari and now I embrace Carol- who was a baby, basically at the time.
My mom really put my dad through hell. Neither are/were perfect as parents, but to change my name in all ways but legally? Seriously! It is what it is and I happy to take back the power of my birthname.
On a side note, after taking back my name and that power, I had the most amazing and draining Spiritual Awakening! My Spirit Guides and my Dad (may he rest in peace) were so happy!
What are your thoughts? Leave a comment!
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Until next time…
Thank you for your time.
Love & Light, Carol
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